Nicotine

Problems are rampant;
Nothing is going as planned -
My plan.
Left is right, up is down
Stomach churning,
Palms sweating.
Inhale.
But for the few moments,
Moments of euphoria -
I'm free from the chains of the world
Exhale.
For these few moments,
Everything seems alright.
Inhale.
For these few moments,
I'm the master of my life.
Exhale.
For these few moments,
I'm alive.
I feel alive.
Life flows within me.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Everything is going to be alright after all;
At least for these few moments.

galaxies

The skies, as with the sea; the galaxy: so vast.
I have it all, all to me.
I am the world, the world is me;
Endless and limitless.
Out there for us, you and I,
Only shame is
There's no one to explore it with -
Well at least, for me.

Day 0

Day 00

I'm pretty conflicted about this decision to quit smoking. I've realised (with the help of Andy and Peisheng) that I'm going too fast on smoking. I'm now currently at ~8 sticks per day. This adds up to about $4.80 per day.

Hopefully I will be able to keep strong and hold on to whatever motivation that's in me to give it up. I'll list some things below that I will refer to again when my will is running low.

Basically, I will be writing a letter to myself to encourage future me to give up the sticks.

Hey Jerome,

It's Jerome of 20/1/2014. I know what you're thinking right now. You want a stick of IceBlast. Maybe you'll even settle for a BlackMenthol right now, who knows? Keep it up. You've laid off the sticks for a few days now(?) and I'm sure that you'll be able to keep it up.

Remember that time when you tried nofap? 18 days i believe. Jerome, you went 18 days without touching yourself. I'm sure you can give this up. Still not convinced? Think about your family - Mum doesn't know. Dad doesn't know. Brother is definitely not proud of me. Don't let them down once again. Even though this sounds cliche but you know that you love them. Don't puff that shit anymore Jerome. You've went x days without it, you can go for more.

Still not convinced? Let me remind you. As I'm typing this right now, I am craving for a smoke. Just a small cigarette that will give me euphoria. Smoke that sinus away. I'm sure when you're reading this Jerome, that feeling will intensify. Don't. Give. Up.

Jerome. You're not well to do. $12.10 every 2 days is not contributing to that. You owe people money and you know it. You feel bad. In fact, I'm feeling bad for you right now. $4.80 per day can result to $24 dollars a week. One month and you can save $92 dollars. Remember that sevenfriday watch that you want? I know man, I want it too. Here's a picture of it to motivate you. In fifteen months, you'll be able to pay for that by yourself. Think about it bro, a sevenfriday watch that you own, that you paid for.



Lastly, think about your friends. If you're craving it to the point where you're willing to give up sevenfriday, think about your friends man. They genuinely care about you. I know, social smoking is fine yadayada. You started off as a social smoker right? What the fuck happened along the way man? You smoked 18 sticks just last friday.

Don't go back down the same path. Don't take a stick to congratulate yourself man. No. Excuses. If you're bored play tiny tower or dragonsvale. You know you hate the second hand smoke smell.

If you smoke you'll cover your own scent Jerome. What the point of spraying cologne when you go school then? I can assure you (not really) that you will smell better if you stop smoking you nut.

Your chapped lips? I'm pretty sure that they'll go away if you stop.

Please think about it again Jerome. Is it worth it giving up the x days of effort that you've put in to stop smoking just for a quick high? Let me tell you this - the more I'm typing the more hyped that I become. I hope that when you read this you will feel what I'm feeling right now, and that you will not succumb to that fucking stick of nicotine.

Much love as always,

Jerome as of 20/1/2014
xoxo


okie edit: Jerome when you're out with friends/partying you can smoke but not so much k heh

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"Even if everyone on the planet was a hard worker and attended college, our society would still need people to make our fries, serve our coffees, or deliver our pizzas. We like to think that people on the bottom of society deserve to be there and can only move up if they worked harder, but someone has to lose."

food for thought

Love?

Hi all it's me again.

Things have been pretty stable for me recently, and nothing has really caught my attention. So.... the topic that i'm gonna talk about today, is.... love! Yeah not how to achieve love but instead my honest opinion about it.


So, i posted this post on a topic named 'what is love?' last year (yeah i go to forums)


Personally, i feel that there are 2 possible answers. :


It exists. I have seen people get from being friends, to dating, to getting married. Although i have never been in a relationship, i often hear about how people exclaim that they love someone so much that they would die for them, etc. 
This takes some big guts to say. How many of us would actually die for someone? Well love can actually explain that. 
Moreover, i am a Christian. I'm sure all of you have heard how Jesus died for mankind so i would not go through that again. 
If two people do not actually love each other, and that they got together just for fun/entertainment, what keeps them together? I often wonder if love between people would run out. I have read and seen couples who are married for over 50 years, and they still look pretty loving to me. 


It doesn't exist. When people say they love someone, do they just like how that person look or do they actually fall for the person's attitude? 
Are they in love with the person's appearance or actually in love with the person her/himself? So far, no one has been really able to describe love. 
As i have stated earlier, i have not been in a relationship, so i would have no idea. When we 'love' someone, are we just driven by our hormones( Wanting to have sexual intercourse with that person)?Or perhaps we are just bored, and are trying to find something to do to fill up our time. 
I do strongly believe that whatever the human mind set's it willpower to, that human would believe that it can be done is true. So, are we really loving that person, or are we just living in a delusion created by our own minds that we got from hollywood that we are in 'love'?


In conclusion, i would like to go with love exist. This is because i feel that there is a special bond formed between two persons when they are actually in love. This is the only logical reason for any long lasting marriages. 
I believe that small acts of love would slowly ensure the continual growth and strengthening of this bond, while being unfaithful, dishonest, etc would weaken it. Therefore, i believe that love does actually exist and each person has a 'container' of unlimited love to give out. This would mean that each and every one of us are able to love someone to the fullest, if only we want to. 
However, each 'love capsule' can be only filled with other people's love only. Therefore, i believe that it is impossible to love yourself, ( To the extend of dating yourself, etc.) if what i just said makes sense. 




Just my two cents worth. Thank you for your time.








As i've stated up on top, i ended with saying that love exists. However, there are many types of love. I shall try to give you my honest opinion about it.


1. Heavenly love
This type of love is so pure and saturated. It is indeed the ultimate form of love, and it can't be given out by any other humans. Only a heavenly being would be able to give it out. This love, is much much more than giving without expecting anything back. It's almost the 'highest' form of love. One way to imagine this love is to picture all the other types of love, then multiply it by 100. This type of love isn't just 'unconditional' or 'never-ending'. I repeat again, it's definitely much more than that. It's about loving someone, even if it isn't returned. It's about loving someone who hates you. It's about loving someone who persecutes you. It's about loving someone that insults you. You get it. It's such a beautiful thing, and yet many appreciate it.


John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

Famous verse, yet many don't believe in it. He send his one and only son to earth,just to die. Just because he loves us, he is willing to let his son go through such suffering and pain.God actually cares. Wouldn't it be easier just to destroy earth, then create it once again? All the misdeeds and wrong ideas would be destroyed. Never to be seen again. Wouldn't it be so much easier for God to not care? Instead, out of His love for us, He is willing to let his Son go through all that just so we can be saved. Just out of love.

2.Parental love

I believe that this is quite self-explanatory. I trust that all of you have read stories about how parents sacrifice their lives for their child, be it sheltering them during an earthquake, or pushing them away from an oncoming car. Parents are wonderful beings. They are the only relatives that anyone has that would go all out for you. They would take a bullet for you. No matter how their child turns out to be, they would still want the best for them. Even if you're the most despicable criminal on earth, your parents would still see a glimmer of hope in you. Your parents' love is so deep. They can forgive you for insulting them. They can forgive you for beating them. They can forgive you for abandoning them. 


However, this love is not perfect. At times, they will not be there for you. At times, they will say things that would hurt you. At times, they would do things that would hurt you. Yet, despite all this, deep down inside, you still can feel their love for you. You know that they still care for you. You know that they still want you back in their arms. You know. You feel it. 


That is why parental love is such a strong form of love. It's almost comparable to that of a bond between your parents and yourself. A bond which can hold on to you both. A bond so strong that nothing on this earth, not even death, can break.


3.Mutual love

This is the most common type of love. Found everywhere. However, it is also often misunderstood. Well it's more misinterpreted than misunderstood. Many people are so clouded about this subject. This is partly the fault of hollywood, with their 'perfect ideology' of what love should be. Should the hottest boy get together with the cutest girl? As mentioned in my forum post, When people say they love someone, do they just like how that person look or do they actually fall for the person's attitude? Regardless, this form of love is one of the 'more difficult' ones to get. To be able to attain this form of love, you would have to put in a certain amount of effort in your relationship with your partner, and your partner has to contribute equally. Without this giving and receiving, this relationship would never work.

However, even when it's name has been tarnished so many a times, this form of love is still very much powerful. When you're able to see the true form of mutual love, you'd be able to appreciate it. Even though i still do not have the privilege to experience it first hand, i had the honour to witness it from afar. My parents have been married for quite a while now, and they still seem pretty strong together. They rarely have any quarrels and they joke around alot. 

I've read somewhere before that true love has no boundaries. Nothing can separate you from the one you love. Be it the oceans or the sky, if there's true love, there's a way. I believe that mutual love is very very misinterpreted, but once an individual has embraced it, and finds out who he really loves, he shall attain true happiness, for love leads to happiness.

4.Self love

Arguably the most difficult form of love to achieve, self love is a wonderful thing. The reason that it is difficult to get is because, no one would be able to give it to you. Unlike the other forms of love stated above, self love, as the name suggests, is attained when you love yourself. Sounds easy enough? Not so, when you have problems such as depression, insomnia, or other illnesses. Self love is based around respecting yourself. How are you supposed to love others when you can't even love youself? If you intentionally cause harm to yourself, be it cutting ot bruising, would you do the same to others?

If you can turn a blind eye to the path to achieving self love, the reward is truly overwhelming. You would be able to know what's good for you, able to differentiate the rights and the wrongs. All this because you know that you yourself, is as important as anyone else, if not more important. However if the self respect is not there, nothing good can come out of you. You would hate everything around you. As compared to the person with self love, you will not appreciate the sun, your bed, your family, your friends, your job, your belongings, your face, your emotions. Everything will seem pointless to you. 

That is why, self love is the most important one out of everything here. Without it, you will not be able to love anyone else, let alone live life to the fullest. 

Well, those are my thoughts about the different types of love. As far apart they may seem, they are all intertwined together in an elaborate puzzle. The only thing that i have to comment, is that one must dare to go forward and experience it. For if you just read and think, nothing is going to happen. This applies to myself as well :/. 

To be honest, i feel that having a relationship in this period of my life is pointless, and frankly, just a complete waste of time and money. Not to be a wet blanket, but the girl that you're with now would probably not be your future wife. Although it would be comforting to have someone to talk to, someone to cuddle with, there are certain things that are slightly more important. Maybe all of this is just jealous talk hehe. 

Now to add something that is actually relevant to the topic, i feel that love is a vital part of life. Nobody can make it without the power of love boosting them on. It's impossible to go on without love. Just take 2 minutes off and take time to think of the things close to you. Think about the things you love. Think about your parents, your friends, siblings, etc. Are you loving them enough? Is your relationship with them healthy? If not, do something about it, before it all becomes too late.

Cya,

JerBunny.

I'm back. I'm batman. I'm cool.

Heya y'all. Howdy' mate. I am back once again to write about pointless things. This post is going to be extremely pointless, as it just features some of the shit that goes on in my mind.

The first shit that goes on in my mind:

SHARP, Y YOU NO SMART?

Yes. I'm talking about the calculator. I was just sitting in class during amath, and this thought came to me: Why doesn't sharp learn from other electronic devices, and make their calculator chargeable either by power plug or USB? Or even better, make regular software updates? This way, the competition against Casio would be eliminated totally. Of course, there are several pros and cons to this.

Pros.

-No need to waste money to purchase batteries.

-Regular updates = Better calculating. [Updated software, more functions, etc.]

Cons.

-Anything that is electronic and is accessible by computer is hack-able.

-Pupils may cheat. [Insert equations, etc.]

-Some people may not have computers to charge it. [Of course, this can be solved by making the USB Powerpoint plug thingy.]

Even though the cons may be more than the pros, the pros still outweigh the cons. Imagine the money and anxiety saved, when batteries are not needed. No more worrying if the calculator will die on you during the test tomorrow, no more wasting precious chicken chop money on batteries.

Some may argue, saying that Sharp would not earn, as everyone would only have to purchase one calculator and update the software. Well, they could make a programme which would allow users to 'control' their calculator from there. They can decide on what to add into the calculator, what to take out, etc. Some sort of an iTunes for calculators. About the money part, the programme could be ad supported.

Problem=Solved.

So pleaseeee. If anyone working for Sharp, Casio, or any other calculator company, reads this, please work on it immediately. Of course, pay me some money too for the idea. I will sue you!

The second shit that goes on in my mind.

Tubes. When i am a governor or president of some place, that place would be the 'duh shit'. Firstly, i would make sure that everyone has a tube system that would bring them from their home to their workplace. This tube would feature a sound system, and a bed. With this tube, people would be able to get to their workplace even faster. This tube would be powered by clean nuclear energy, which i would clarify on later. These tubes would be constructed in an orderly manner, and would all be located underground. Thus, the city would still look swag-y.

Second thing that i would like to do, is that i would put a glass dome over the city. Some sort like the simpsons movie. However, this dome would be fully air-conditioned. This dome would also be made out of a special material, one which allows heat from the city to escape, and not let the heat outside in. Only certain key areas, such as roads to other cities and airports, would have holes. With this dome, there would be no more rain, and a cool city.

Thirdly, i would build nuclear plants. Nuclear energy is by far the most efficient type of energy. Of course, i would still build wind and sun farms outside of the city for energy too. But that would not be enough. Thus, the need for nuclear energy. Needless to say, i would make sure that the nuclear waste would be disposed the right way.

Just some shitty ideas from me. Hope you enjoy the sneak peak of what is going on inside my head.

G'bye mate,

JEROME

Tee tee tee pew pew pew baboom.

Heya my fellow Jeromeians.

1.The topic that i am going to write about today is..... Inner-self!

By inner-self, i am talking about another person that is exactly the same as you, but with different thinkings/attitudes/personalities.

I believe that the statement above is true. I do believe that there is another Jerome living inside this Jerome. However, i do not know if there are multiple Jeromes inside me.

Well, to clear things up for you, i will list the different types of Jeromes here.

JEROME#1

This Jerome is the Jerome that people usually see. People that don't know me personally. Handsome, cool, attractive, etc. People who know just Jerome usually thinks highly of him. This is because they have never heard him talk before.

JEROME#2

This is the Jerome that my friends know. They know Jerome#1, but their views of him have changed drastically. People who know this Jerome usually are on extreme ends with him. They either love him or hate him. This is because this Jerome is a total asshole.

JEROME#3

Aha. This is the Jerome Jerome. The real me, to be honest. Only the closest of my friends and my family know this Jerome. This Jerome acts naturally around them, because he knows that he can trust them. This Jerome is also abit of an asshole, but he would apologise if he is in the wrong.

Let me explain why i wrote all that.

I'm just trying to explain and prove to you that my point is valid, and that people would act differently around other people. Take me for example. Look at the 3 different types of me. I would appear differently to different groups of people. This is simply because i act differently around them. Sort of a split personality.

Yeah. I'm sort of a two faced asshole hypocrite. To be really honest, i believe that everyone is like that. We would all try to look our best at all times, to everyone, even though we don't look like that. *Ahem Makeup Ahem.*

Well, i have a few paragraphs to clarify myself.

Think about it. Would you really act like yourself on your first date? Would you fart on your first date? If your answer is yes, tell me. I'll remember you in my prayers.

The problem with us is that we tend to deceit others. One lie after another.

Take me for example, AGAIN. If you set me up on a date, *wink*, i would be sure to dress my best. I would do everything that i would not normally do. In other words, i would just show that person the good side of me.

However, if things drag along, i would slowly reveal myself to her. My habits would show up, etc. That is not a good thing.

First impressions always count, but i feel that one should not overdo it. If you act and behave totally opposite of what you really are, once they see through you and your asshole nature, you are done for.

Sorry, but this is not a blog on how to pick up chicks.

What i am saying is, it is perfectly natural and human-like to want to show off/ make a good impression. But, you should not overdo it. It would just make you look like a total jerkface. It is okay to act differently around different people. You can be a jerk to your brother, and yet a kind puppy loving guy around your girlfriend. It is normal, and almost everyone does that.

HOWEVER, if you look at it from another point, it is as though we are wearing masks. Different masks for different occasions. It appears that everyone has an infinite amount of masks, and that we can choose which to wear each day. All the masks look the same, but wearing it would give you a different personality.

The day when someone really mean what they say, is the day when their true face catches the sunlight. Think about it. It's so deep, maybe you can find Adele rolling in there.

Have a good day sir.

Cya,

JEROME.

Ugh.

Hohoho. Merry Christmas. It is the time of the year to be jolly and fun and all that shit.

I should really be happy and all excited now. Christmas! Whoo!. I just can't feel i anymore. Haha. I used to become so excited whenever this period of the year comes. But lately, i have just become so emotion-less. I guess the only things that i can feel these day are envy and anger. Hahaha. (laugh all you want but you ain't perfect too.)

When it was this time last year, or any year before, i was still happy-go-lucky. Now no more. My mind often force me to think about strange and complex things before it finally allows me to go to bed and orh orh. Things like my future, the afterlife, etc. Hmm. I am really not sure if this is merely just due to the odd sleeping hours, or i am really become a philosopher. Hahaha. I am really doubting it's the second though.

DISCLAIMER: THIS POST IS GOING TO BE DAMNNN BORING AND LENGTHY.

THINGS I THINK ABOUT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT NOT BECAUSE I WANT TO BUT BECAUSE I HAVE TO #1:

Life and how it is unfair.

You know, when you were young, everything would somehow just work out for you? From you shitting in your pampers to spoiling something, someone somehow would just fix it for you. Well honey, not anymore. For me at least. Isn't it strange? As you grow older, more things are expected of you, as compared to when you were younger. But, as you grow older, lesser help is coming your way. Why is this so? I know, being independent and all that, but, if that is so, why does the CEO do so little as compared to the average worker?

No, i am not tired of living in this world. No, i am not someone who wants to start a revolution. All i am doing here is asking life (or anybody who is at the same level of authority as life) : Why are you so unfair? People work like hell but they do not get what they deserve. Whereas, there are some people who put minimum effort but get bountiful rewards.

It is just like an ox and a farmer. The ox would plough the field for 16 hours a day, and it only gets fed with leftovers and wheat. Whereas, the farmer, who would just sit behind the ox, gets fed with rice, meat, etc. I do realise the fact that the farmer is the one who planted the seed. But, the main point here is, does the ox gets what he deserves? Well in this case, the ox is the average office worker while the farmer is the CEO. Even though the CEO started the company(planting the rice), it is actually the ox which enables the company to grow. So... Just think about it. Do leaders actually deserve what they are getting paid?

THINGS I THINK ABOUT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT NOT BECAUSE I WANT TO BUT BECAUSE I HAVE TO #2:

What happens when my parents pass on.

Hmm. I am not sure about you, but thinking about my relatives passing on is always frequent to me. To be honest, i don't really bother if my other relatives die(I am not close to them, but i will still attend their funeral out of respect), but if my parents or brother passes on, may i be damned.

My mum would always ask me, what would happen if she was gone. Well that question only pops up when i ask her to do me a favour. To be honest again, i don't know. I do not know if i would be crying or just shocked. I believe that we all would like our parents to stay with us forever(Unless you have abusive parents). But the sad sad truth is that they can't, even if they like to. Frankly, without my mother, my life would totally change.

Well, in fact, i had a similar experience twice. My parents went overseas together and me and my brother were left alone in charge for 6-7 days. Well, the first few days were awesome; sleeping late, ordering deliveries. But, after a while,(even though i don't admit it) i would sense that something is wrong. Like, something is out of place. It is like when you see a bottle cap not screwed on fully. You would think about it everytime you see something that reminds you of the loose cap. You would feel unrest until someone screws it tight. I would not describe this feeling as 'miss', but rather, 'amiss'.

I know, we all have our own incidents with our parents. But in the end, i still believe that family relationships would cover these incidents up. Thus, i find it easier to forgive my family than to forgive my friend.

The main point of this chapter is that, if my parents are gone forever, i would be screwed. Of course, i would still be able to live on, continue with my life. But that would take time for me. The first few months of losing them would be hell. I believe that everything in my life would fall apart. After that, i would be able to piece the parts back together. But it would not be the same without them.

DISCLAIMER: I AM MERELY WRITING OUT MY THOUGHTS. THIS PART MAY OFFEND SOME PEOPLE. IF YOU ARE EASILY OFFENDED, PLEASE SKIP TO THE ENDING NOW.

THINGS I THINK ABOUT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT NOT BECAUSE I WANT TO BUT BECAUSE I HAVE TO #3:

The afterlife.

This is the one that keeps me up the longest. The afterlife. Is there an afterlife? Will i be reincarnated? Will i live in heaven forever like what the bible says? Well, if you were hoping to get answers to these questions from me, dream on. So many different religions, so many different teachings. Some teaches that people would be reincarnated into different things after they die, depending on what they did in their previous life. My question to this is; If one person dies and he/she reincarnates into another person, why is the world's population going up?

Well, since i am a Christian, my belief is that when i die, i would be in heaven forever and ever. This point has served as both a comforting and puzzling idea for me. Comforting, in a way that i would be in heaven, and not, in hell.(Which is eternal burning, etc.) Puzzling, because, of the word forever.

Dictionary.com explains forever as: without ever ending; eternally: to last forever.

The bible says that in heaven, there would be never ending joy, just happiness. No sorrow, discomfort, jealousy, etc.

But...Forever. That is a long time. I have read one saying before. "What is forever? Forever is when you send a bird, ask it to pick up a speck of dirt from earth, and fly to the moon to drop it off. When the bird is finally done, ask it to repeat for 10 more times. Then, that is just the beginning of forever,"

I would really love a restart button in life. So maybe that is why i would enjoy begin reincarnated. Although, i would still like to have some memories from my past life, so that i will not make the mistakes that i have made.

Still, this is my religion and i would believe in it with everything that i got. If God says no reincarnation, then, no reincarnation then. :)

Finally, the conclusion.

The point of this post is just to serve as a reminder for me, in the future. When i look back onto this blog, i would be able to see what i was thinking about during this period of my life. Also, this post is for all those people who think too much.(like me, for example) Hopefully you can find some answers to your deep questions.

Tatadaah. The end.

PEACE,

Jerome Leong.

Potato.

Yoh. Sups.

So.. Nothing much has been up lately. Just the same usual thing repeating over and over again. I really hope this does not happen during the holidays. I really dont wanna waste this holiday.

Well, today was a fun day.

First, i went to school. I was left with bastian 'cause amos and sam did not go to school. Felt like sleeping throughout the lessons. I just realised that my Chinese teacher likes to call me to answer questions. -_-

Totally opposite of what amos said. He told me that if i joined dance, i would not have to answer any more questions or get scolded. -_- Gullible Jerome eh._.

Well, during recess, i saw amos and sam in the canteen. I was shocked. o_o. Later, we decided to go home after recess. Well, wasn't really worth it though.

I decided to follow bastian to cut his hair at avenue 8. When we reached there, we saw some teachers having their lunch just beside the salon. Second shock of the day. -_-. So, we decided to risk it and walk one whole round just to get to the salon. Guess what? The salon was closed. Closed...

Did not really do much during the afternoon though. Just managed to pull through with some family guy and tf2 with ben. REALLY BORING DAY.

Well, not to fear. I am here. Naa.

On the bright side, dance is on tomorrow. Whee!

Just hope that i will not get bored of it. Just like some people in my class. -_-

They use to say that they love dance. Now, they do not even wanna go to the cca trainings. Really changed how i view them as a person.

Secondly, i have been thinking quite alot during my quiet times. Whist sitting there doing nothing, i was thinking about my whole life in general, from when i left my first home to when i will rest in my last. I was watching XiaXue's guide to life and she said something that kinda striked me hard. She said something about having your youth only once.

I was thinking about that and well, things came into my mind. Hmm. I feel that if i were to die tomorrow, i would regret it. No, i did not take that from a song. While we are on the topic on songs, they always mention to live each day like your last. Doesn't really make any sense to me. I mean, i get what they are trying to convey to us, but is it really possible to live each day like my last? I often get under my blanket regretting the things that i have done or have not done that day.

Did not love my friends enough. Did not love my parents enough. Did not show enough respect to teachers, etc. Things like these would find me at night. I remember there was once, while i was at my brother's room, and i was just lying on my bed. He was still listening to songs, and he played some old song. I did not know what happened, but i just kept thinking about my childhood, the memories i had with him, my parents, everyone in general. I was really wishing hard to be able to get back to my childhood. To become a child once again. To be free of all worries. (Do not get me wrong, but i do not have any love related problems.) That moment of wishing felt so right. I just cried. While i was going to sleep, i cried. Ahh warm tears down my cheeks. Feels so good.

I guess that point that i am trying to drive at is that living each day like your last is not possible. You know, 'cause people would be raping, robbing banks, etc. I believe in living each day to the best you can. Love the people around you. Respect them. Treasure them. For you never know, they may not be with you tomorrow.

Yeah.

Just remember, if you need any help, Batman is here.

Me too.

PEACEEEE.

Boom boom boom.

HO HEY THERE.

Sup.

So well, things have been quite smooth sailing these couple of months. I guess the only 'unhappy' incident was me and my scandalous affair with my results. That thing has really gotten way way way out of hand. She has not been answering my calls, replying my messages, etc. I really do not know what to do. I did try to seek some help from the professionals (Tutors), but she still does not seem to be attracted to me anymore. Haiya. When i finally got her back, she was in a terrible state. I don't even know what to do anything anymore.

Then, seeing other people's results, it kinda makes me feel worse.

I did well enough to promote, but not good enough to feel good.

Well i did pass my chinese though. So.. NO MORE CLB AND NO MORE WANTON WRAPPING. Ha.

Hmm, things seem fairly slackly-ish after the exams. Had some media literacy thingy this week. It has horrible. For once, i did not learn anything at all. It was just me hearing someone speak for 5 hours. Not really sure why this is planned for us though.

Err, my after school hours are now dedicated to Minecraft. Sick game. You can really spent hours on it without feeling bored or tired. Goes to show really how awesome it is.

Well, on Thursday, i went to Colin's house to fix his HoN. Turns out that his drivers are outdated. -_- Biggest fail i have ever seen so far. He doesn't even know what is going on. Haha. Such a cute boy.

K. Back to Minecraft. Me and Dono has been building some crazy things these few days.

e.g:

'...And not a single shit was given that day.'

Ha. What a boss. Really just wish that i can be like him. Not caring about anything else, how i look, how other look at me, how people think about me.

Well there are always to sides to a coin, so this is what the boss looks like from behind. Ha.

Looks like a semi-crazy-stupid man playing sandcastles with his shovel. Haha. Classic example to not judge someone by their outer appearance and what you see at your first encounter with him. Things may not be what they seem.

So... Yeah! That is all for today. GLHF living your life. :)

:) Extra smiley for you.

:) Oh another.

WELL HELLO THERE

HELLO THERE DONOVAN.

Nothing much to complain or whine about these few days. Well at least the exams are over. ! Whooah!. Yeah. Err. Well, Donovan, my parents are going overseas tomorrow. So for like 8 days it would be just be and my brother.

Secondly.... I have a new wallpaper! Yeah. I got it from http://wallbase.cc/start/.

Really cool site. Lots of wallpaper. Even my ipod is using wallpapers from there.

THIRDLY, BLUESTACKS!

http://bluestacks.com/download.html

So basically this app allows my to run my android apps on my PC. HOW COOL IS THAT. FROM BOON XIANG TO CHUCK NORRIS I SHALL RATE IT A 8. Well thinking about it again, it really does not do much. I have an android phone anyways. Just another thing for me to show off. (:

Err. Well. Things have been going quite stable this month. If you refer to my last post, i was going on about some people. Well now it's all ok now. Not that i have tried to do anything about it.

YEAH, ALSO, OPENNET. YEAH. Finally it came. About two weeks ago. Now i have SUPERSUPER fast internet speed. Like duh Flash. >_>.

Well i had amath today. Really hoping for the best. Well i would probably be disappointed when i get back the result anyways. But till then, it is p-a-r-t-y time. Whooah.!

Also, Donovan, I SHALL BEGIN MY EXERCISE ROUTINE ONCE MORE WITH RHAIZAN. BY NEXT YEAR, I WOULD BE A SLIM AND HEALTHY FIT BOY.

So yeah, please support me. I accept everything from money to weights. :)

Shit has gone wild.

WOWWWWWWW. No sheet. These few weeks has been crazy. C-R-A-Z-Y.

Firstly, there was exams. Exams. Exams. Exams. Exams. Yeah they do suck. The real sad part is when i get back the results. Not ideal at all. Honestly speaking, i did study a little. Well apparently it wasn't enough. Some results were expected though. *Cough* Chineseeee.

Well some were just plain disappointing. Amaths. I thought i nailed it. 28/40. That was the mark that i was aiming for AFTER i took the paper. Even when Mr Yeo was going through the results, i still thought i was gonna do well. Sadly, i failed. Was not sure why. Definitely not due to careless mistakes. Oh well. What's done is done. No point whining over it. :/

SECONDLY, sheeeeeeeeeet.

Yeah sheet. Not sure why, but why do people have to change? My friends all around me are peeling off their masks one by one. No please. I am not sure if i want them to be frank or just put up an act in front of me. Hey you. Your mask is dropping off. Not sure if you noticed, but you look hideous inside.

If you had just let the wounds heal openly, and not hide it with the mask of what you are not, it would already have healed. People do see. People do feel. Friends are there to help you. We could give you a band-aid for your wound. Now when your mask is fading away, all that is left is a disgusting image of what you really are.

Here comes the toppings. It's not just one guy around me. It is multiple dudes.

For anyone reading this;

People do get used to looks. So, if you appear like that in front of them, they would get used to it after a while, no matter how ugly.

So yeah, make your decisions wisely. But after all, it's your life. Who am i to bother you? I am just another guy.

A lil' poem.

Just a small poem which does not make much sense.

Here it goes.

A life of bliss.

Living a life like this

What more can one ask for?

You are living in so much bliss

How could you even try to ask for more?

Try and stop,

Look around for awhile

And maybe, just maybe, you will realise what you got.

Do you not see?

Do you not know?

You my good sir are looking blindly.

Your eyes do not give you vision,

Such as your heart do not feel.

You have overlooked lots of things,

Much of which is the real deal.

I have told you once,

And again i say.

What you have there, friend

Is worth much much more than a stack of hay.

You have underestimate the value of family, friends, and love.

These are the true things,

That are really of worth!

I beg you please, please i beg.

Look around you,

All is good, give nicely to you in a sack!

So treasure it, what you got.

For what you have,

Others not.

Jerome Leong

3July2011

Audition.

Woah. The fever is back again.

._.

AUDITION. WHOO.


At first, i dl-ed it to cure my boredom. From there, it became a daily thing.


I just don't know why, i will not get bored playing audition leh.

Maybe it's the music.
Maybe it's the dance.


Amos, Rz and me were talking about the people in audi and we agreed that less that 10 percent of the people in Audition look as good as their game character. LOL

But, the people that are playing Audition are really really very friendly people. ^_^



Oh yeah, another motive for playing Audition is to think of some sets for Amos, AKA BBoy Draulca. >_<


There are some nice moves inside.


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Thanks. ~_~


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It's not my fault.

You got angry at me just cause i don't wanna lend you my bag.

What kind of bullshit is that?

I don't wanna lend you cause of previous experiences lor.
I lend you my maths set for your exams and you lost it.
I lend you my bag for camp and u did not return it for 2 months.

Angry at me? I'm still ok.

Guai lan me? You watch out.


Talk and talk and talk and talk.
But, no substances to back it up.

Do you know that you are picking a fight?

Of course, all the previous fights you may have beat me up quite badly.


What about now eh?

I still rememeber that time when you quarreled with me.
I challenged you to a fight and you left the house, 'not wanting to cause trouble' and 'give it to me'

Comeon lah.

Don't try and kid anyone.

If it was 2 years ago you would have come and whack me up real good.

You don't even dare to look me in the eye when you ask me to get out of 'your' room.

I may have asked to shift out, but that doesn't mean that the room belongs you.



O, also, don't try to be a smart ass and comment on things you don't know. You are not me. I do my research before i critic. Bloody loser.



I said it before, and it has came true.


'When i am older, you cannot win every fight anymore.'



Older doesn't mean wiser.

Older doesn't mean stronger.

Older doesn't mean supremacy.

Mark my words.

Do not ever.
Ever underestimate me.

HoN

Whoo! Feeling great lah. Just won a HoN match. Even though i teamed with Bx and Brendon. Even though they were feeding. I still managed to keep my cool and turn the tides. :D I used Swiftblade and i dominated bottom lane. Haha.

Got my items fast and then own! :)

I had cleared the whole team in one clash.

5PEOPLE. HAHA. :)


Well. I am really glad that i kept my cool and did not rage @Bx and Brendon. If i did, i may not have performed as well. I learnt that talking to people in a nice tone is much more effective than actually scolding them.


I just hope that i would be able to stay calm and do what i did just now in every single game.


After all, isn't games meant for fun? :)




Also,



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BACK DONOVAN!


Here is a poem for you. :)


Friends come and friends go,
Just like how toys wear out,
But you are more than just another friend,
One that i would easily forget about.
You are more of a precious gem to me,
One that will never lose it's shininess.
I hope and i pray, that this friendship would never cease to be.


:)


There you go Donovan.

:D

:(

Wa sian lah. 2011 will have lots of nice games coming out. By right, that is a good thing. But, i don't have any money to spend. :(

Talked to Rhaizan about all the games and got really hyped about it before the reality hit me.

$$

:(

Hopefully i would be able to save up enough money to get at least 2 games.


Another sad thing is that there are some games that are only PS3 exclusive. This would not be much of a great deal but there are some awesome games involved. :(

Makes me regret buying the XBOX. :(

Haiyah. I just need to save up.
Save up.
Save up.
Save up.


Don't eat so much.
Don't eat so much.

Can slim down also.

:)

MineCraftt.

Best.Game.Ever. :)

In cause you did not know,

Minecraft is a game about placing blocks to build anything you can imagine. At night monsters come out, make sure to build a shelter before that happens.

Gogogogo.

Get the game!

www.minecraft.net


Once you get the game you can ask me to play with you! :O

O yeah, good luck for your trip Donovan.
Good luck bobo.

:)

First post.

Okay. So Donovan managed to get me to create this..thingy.